Deserve to shine.

You are changing.  You are growing.
You have chips starting to show.
I can see that some are my 'fault'.
I try my best, but don't always know,
What you will take so deeply.
Your triggers are different to mine.
Every day, I will try to polish them out.
My darling you deserve to shine.

I remember her.

As I talk to you, I remember her.
She is closer to me now.
I cannot be her again,
I really don't know how.
It is lovely to almost touch her,
But it's not important that she stays.
It's important that I grow,
But that can happen in many ways.

Still carrying.

I'm still carrying your first offence,
So when you up the count,
I struggle then to look at you.
My distaste begins to mount.
I question all your actions,
And my decisions then for sure.
Your behaviour is not acceptable,
But I suspect my translation is not pure.

On guard.

This I remember.
This feeling hits home.
When you're made a stranger.
You are clearly alone.
This, a reminder,
Of why I am here.
When all your wondering,
Is suddenly clear.
This I remember.
This feeling hits hard.
When you've been made a stranger.
Your heart is on guard.

Sleep's required.

Some days you just need to rest,
Your head on something soft,
And take ten minutes peace,
To keep your spirit aloft.
Today was not my best job,
But perhaps not my all time worst.
I'll try and rally in the morning,
But sleep's required first.

In the mix.

So many warnings,
Things to address,
So many triggers,
Creating a mess.
I know I should tackle,
I know I should fix,
But not today,
Whilst I'm deep in the mix.  

Watch it fall.

Is feels strange to write,
Before the day is done.
Stronger feelings,
Could always come.
Putting my day,
On this page,
It's what I'll go back to,
In another age.
I sense the rest of the day,
May not be mine,
So I am taking,
Just this moment in time,
Reflecting on how,
I can overthink it all.
Throw it up in the air,
And watch it fall.