Forge.

Those sliding doors have done their thing.
My reality has altered.
The journey I was on has changed,
My plodding feet now faltered.
My feet thought that they knew the way,
But my reality has left.
My steady feet, whipped from beneath,
Leaving me bereft.
Pick your heavy feet up.
Darling raise that head.
Take the deeest breath you can,
And forge a path ahead.

Cease.

One minute, you think you’ll manage.
One minute, you think you’ll cope.
Then the fear re-spins,
And you start to miss the hope.
Some moments, you see shards of light,
Emerging from the dark.
Sometimes it loses strength,
And everything seems stark.
Sometimes, I want to run away,
To introduce some peace.
I cannot see this ending,
And I want the fear to cease.

Little say.

When you are on a roller coaster,
That you did not choose to ride,
You cannot just get off,
You can not flee, run, or hide.
You hold the seat, hold your nerve,
Close your eyes and wait.
Sometimes you truly do,
Have little say in your fate.

Dissolving.

When shock starts to subside,
And autopilot starts to falter,
What have you got left,
When your world is fully in alter?
When your head will not stop spinning,
And your world has slipped to hell,
What in the world do you do,
When there’s no rescue bell?
You focus on the thing,
That you would truly die for.
Put one foot beyond the other,
Though you’re broken to the core.

Teetering.

Standing here in limbo.
Teetering on hell
Head spinning round,
And nothing to tell.
So much hasn’t changed,
But then the truth is life has gone.
This one has collapsed,
And you only get the one.

Eviscerated.

Yesterday, the shock,
Today, the impending tears.
How long will I have to live a lie?
For the rest of all my years?
I am now a person,
Always one step apart.
Lost in a wilderness,
With an eviscerated heart.

Never.

I was never good at waiting,
But this is close to hell.
I don’t want it to come,
But I want it done as well.
My heart is beating random,
And my chest is all a burn.
There are some things in life,
You never want to learn.