You deserve braver

When I seek your approval,
Try to please you,
I briefly hate myself.
The cheapest see-through.

I hate that my confidence,
In the choices I make,
Falls at your feet.
I crumble in your quake.

It seems there's a type,
That I cannot dismiss,
Cannot ignore,
And in that, I'm remiss.

You deserve more,
You deserve braver.
I must stand my ground.
I must not waver.

Being as strong in my conviction,
As I am in my belief,
Could also earn back pride in myself,
And give my soul relief.