The return.

So much about it beautiful.
So much to be grateful for.
The first steps back I smiled with joy,
Then my stomach hit the floor.
Reality burst through streams of sun,
And tears began to muster.
Where has the happiness gone?
All left behind to fuster.
I am taken back a year in time.
So much, yet nothing altered.
I can see where my door slid,
Where my life became so altered.
I can not even be angry or bitter,
Because of what it will cause.
It doesn't stop my feeling it,
And so dreaming of other doors.